My personal kick in the rear!

Okay, maybe not what YOU need, but certainly what I need!  And thankfully, I’m doing it myself.  Time to get it back in gear.  I had a feeling once I got to “onederland” I’d relax just a little, and I did.  But after seeing July’s stats…I’m done with the relax thankyouverymuch!!  Only -5 pounds for July.  I suppose most people would be happy to lose anything, but seriously, my WLS age is creeping up there (8 months tomorrow!) and I know the “honeymoon” only lasts for so long.  Meaning  the “I can eat and do anything and still lose weight” time.  And I have a feeling I’ve hit my bodies tolerance of simply frolicking along.

While it’s great to make changes, it’s also great to figure out what I changed in the first place (why I slacked) so that it doesn’t happen again.  One word. BusyLazy.  Yup.  That’s it right there.  I started working this summer, and when I first started I was SO dang tired from it, that I made it a point to not go to the gym the same day that I had to work, so I wouldn’t be so exhausted.  Well, after a week or two, it wasn’t THAT hard anymore, and I could have picked the gym back up….but did I?  No.  Rode my bike pretty faithfully for awhile, and then when it broke, I just did…..NOTHING.  NOT GOOD!!  I was still leaning on the excuse “welllll, I really do a lot of physical work at my jobbbbbb” (yes, that’s my whiny voice).  And yes, it is physical work, lots of cleaning and stocking, etc, but that excuse is just that, an excuse after the first two weeks.  And I’m calling it what it is!

Another dumb choice….working at a bakery and finding out that I really don’t dump on sugar AT ALL.  Ugh! But it’s okay now.  I realized last week that I’m just gonna have to put on my big girl panties and suck it up and use my very own will power and say NO!  To MYSELF!  It has been so easy to tell myself that I eat so very little that one donut a day when I work really isn’t going to add up.  And it really didn’t…until I wasn’t working out anymore.  Donut+no work out=feeling like a blob.  And I’ve had enough of feeling like a blob in my life!!  That is NOT why I got my insides rearranged darn it!

So yesterday I decided I’m not bringing anymore donuts home at the end of the day.  Yes, leftovers were free, much to my dismay.  I mean really, does the proverbial “little devil on the shoulder” get more accommodating than THAT?!  And I didn’t bring any home.  Yay me!  I did eat half of one at work though.  But I’m not gonna beat myself up about it.  Just gonna keep making changes.  I also am tracking my food and water on sparkpeople again.  I had let that go too.  Cause really, who wants to type in donuts everyday?!  Well, I am doing it, no matter what gets typed in.  Because I will NEVER BE SATISFIED WITH GOING HALF WAY!! EVER!!  Losing 82 pounds is a great accomplishment, but I’M NOT DONE YET!!  Whew.  There.  I feel better already.

Thankfully, the bakery job is only a summer job, so just a few more weeks to go. Even more thankfully, I am living according to CHOICE, not CIRCUMSTANCE. I’m not waiting for a job to end to make the right choice, I’m making the right choice because it’s what I WANT! Kicking myself in the butt!!

What about you?  How has summer been for you?

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6 responses to “My personal kick in the rear!

  1. idrooledonyourpillow

    I really enjoyed this post. I love how honest you are being with not only us but yourself! And your not letting your own excuses get in the way, that is great. I have a problem with excuses 🙂

    I like what you said about circumstance vs. choice. Because in the end, circumstance is just an excuse anyway, right?

    very motivating 🙂

  2. Hey girl! I totally understand. I have worked at Starbucks twice, it wore me out, I’d be on my feet moving all day and feel like I got so much activity. Leftover pastries were free too. But I’d many times work 4am-12pm and go home and be a blob the whole rest of the day because of getting up so early. Getting home by 1pm I had TIME to go to the gym, but I never did.
    Since I had VSG I don’t dump at all so I can eat sugar, ice cream, anything – so I need to be very selective in my choices also! I’ve lost 60 lbs in 2 1/2 months but I still have almost 100 to go…. I have been a little lax in my workouts lately and need to step it up again. Thanks for the kick in the butt 🙂

  3. I’m still very much in the honeymoon period….actually just beginning the honeymoon because I’ve just started being able to eat food. But I definitely needed this kick in the butt, too. Thanks for sharing your kick!

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