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Full Speed Ahead!!

Well, I’m a bit late on my 10 month update.  Who wants to update no change on the scale?  This was my “reality” month.  This is when the rubber meets the road.  I much prefer the floating honeymoon of the prior 9 months, but ignoring where I am isn’t going to get me where I want to be!  There are many viable “reasons” for the scale not moving this month, which I will share, but I know deep down I’ve simply been lazy about working the program like I should.  Barely going to the gym, not working out at home, not keeping track of protein (my protein levels are great in my blood work, but still), not drinking enough good liquids (i.e. something OTHER than coffeecoffeecoffee), getting in my veggies and getting OUT the carbs. Those darn carbs.  I don’t dump at all, and I love carbs.  Bad combination.  Basically I’ve been floating along for a month or two, instead of directing the path like I used to.  I’m determining today to set my goals, write a plan, and work it.  The thought of staying fat for the rest of my life is enough to make me so angry! I’ve worked so hard to get this far, too hard to quit! I think I’ve come up against an old “mental battle” that constantly says “it’s not gonna work!”, you know, the one we ALL deal with.  At least those of us who’ve been on diet after diet with no success or short lived success.

I’m realizing that I’ve been given this HUGE, amazing boost through WLS, but now it’s time to work through the mental part of it.  It’s been easily ignored for the past 10 months, because I was just zooming along thanks to surgery.  It won’t be ignored anymore.  Now it’s time to see how all of this success, and new habits, have changed me mentally.  I feel like I’m standing facing a line in the sand.  Cross it and truly become who I’ve been building for the past 10 months, or stand here staring at it, giving life to the lie that “it’s not gonna happen”.  And a “rah rah” pep talk from myself isn’t going to do it either.  Only action.  DOING.  And doing it again.  And doing some more.  And doing what’s right.  And doing it for the right reasons….because it’s who I am, it’s what I want, and I’m completely capable!

With that said…it’s time to pull out all of the “extras” that are in my arsenal bag that I’ve not really needed to utilize before now.  I’m going to start tracking my food and drinks again, but this time post them here too.  Accountability here I come.  Even if no one pays attention lol! I will post my work outs too.  And create a home workout plan for the days I don’t make it to the gym.  That was never an issue before, and now it is, so I will make a plan.  I don’t like being a lazy “non-working out” person, and I never want to go back to that!  My butt conforms all too well to that role!!

So, this month, still 190.  It actually bounced back and forth + or – 3 pounds more than a few times.  I had to have 3 weekly iron infusions this past month to get my iron stores back up to normal (they were low before surgery), and with every 4 hour iv infusion, I packed on some water weight and then lost it within a few days.  Now that my iron levels are back up, and I’m not feeling sluggish and tired, time to kick it in gear.  190 is a nice number compared to the 276 I started out at, but it’s not where I belong.  It’s not where I’m stopping.  It’s not where I’m settling.  I’m not done yet! I’m not satisfied! I have more than “this” in me!  I’m not a “half way” person, and it’s time to prove it!

I have more to share, but this blog is already forever long, so I’ll wait.  Since I’m gonna start posting my food and workouts everyday, I’m sure I’ll have plenty of opportunity to share!

I’m making a 3 month commitment to MYSELF.  To eat well, low carb, lots of fluids, and workout at least 4 days a week…and BLOG it.  3 months.  I’m not sure what kind of weight loss goal to have for myself though.  After losing nothing for 2 months in a row, I’d be thrilled with a pound a week.  I’m just not sure if that’s shooting too low, or aiming too high at this point in time.  Not sure what this battle is going to look like to kick this in gear as far as a number goes.  Maybe I’ll surprise myself and lose even more than that.  But I think I’m going to shoot for that.  Cause something is better than nothing at this point in time.

Well, I’ll be seeing you all lots more often now! CHARGE>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>!!!!!!

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Fresh and Clean!

Ahhh!  Fresh, clean, new blog.  It’s like a new fresh pair of socks.  🙂  My life has changed so much over the past few years.  God has re-defined and refined me, and it is finally time to open up the door in blog land again, enjoy the fresh air, sunshine and green trees, and through my writing,  let the field of dreams grow once again!

I have so much to share….one thought at a time.  Grab a cup of coffee, or some lovely Chai Tea…and join me on the Journey!

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